so...what IS today?

Without a way to mark time, it kind of loses its' meaning around here. I get up, do the days schtuff, and then go to bed. The only difference is that I am now doing more things in the daylight... like a "real" human being.

:)

Raining today, it is lovely. Though, the kids are coming to get t1ks' things, and now they will get ruined... it will all be thrown away anyways, and t1k has no balls to stick up to the SIL to say "no, my things count too"

They don't. NOTHING t1k owns counts for ANYTHING with the SIL. I wish she'd leave the man, but hey... she is a good little co-dependent person, and her life doesn't count for shit...

yeah. I raised HER badly. :p

My mom just informed me that t2k does not intend to come back here, her dad has offered her a job over on the west side... it would be nice to know these things in advance...

I can't care, it hurts to much. Once the things are gone that are t1k's, I am done with that... I have my own life now.

**sigh** sucks to feel as though I have put so many years into things that I did not need to do... I could have had my own life, but for some STUPID reason I put the girls first...

VERY STUPID.

so... yeah. this post has gone to hell.

off to do other things...

ah yes... My happy place!

New Month

four months left in 2009 ~ wow.

no, I've not a clue in this world where the year went. For the past three months straight I was involved in the theater gig ~ loved it, and feel a bit lost tonight without it... I suppose I shall survive, and get on with my life...

Today was spent sorting things out ~ I packed two different boxes, and then took a bunch of loose things to the storage. I have all month to finish it all up, but it will take time, energy, and a LOT of gas.

**sigh**

I feel like writing tonight, but I will do it long hand. Listened to a song on a web site (JoeNichols.com) and it put me to thinking ~ so I shall jot down a few words of the story that the song suggested.

feels good to begin to get the half done projects restarted ~ Live theater is time heavy, and it takes a lot of energy also. I don't do the stage thing, but it is just as bad to have to feel the whole works all night, to make the sounds and lights mean what they should.

I'd love to direct something one of these days.

**sigh**

SO!

I'm off to write, or fall alseep in the chair, depending on the mood when I get done with my tea.

today was my last day of eating whatever I want ~ If I am going to get a handle on my health, I gotta begin now.

Stargate ~ the movie is on AMC. Uh oh. need to write fast... ;)

'til tomorrow...

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