My dad died one year ago today ~ I am trying to review the year in my head, and I do not recall to very much... I'm that way all the time though, so doesn't mean that the year was bad and I want to forget it or anything.
Though I would rather forget it it. Seriously.
On the upside here, I promised my dad I'd stay a year, and today is the year.... so now the looking about for other wheres and whys can begin in earnest. I love my mom, and she has really been okay for the most part ~
BUT! there are just somethings that are not tolerable for me here, and my mom will never ever change, so it is really time to go.
Been to feed the horses, now must get on with my day. I have to run to the big city today and get some things for the horses, and then do some grocery shopping on the way home ~ both teenaged girls are going to be here for the rest of the week, and though they don't eat a huge variety of things, they do eat a lot.
SO! not sure where the money will come from, but I will have to feed the kids.... **Sigh**
I need a nap ~ come on viggo, cat nap time!
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26 February 2009
24 February 2009
oatmeal and rice, and taco spices chicken...
My mom is in the biggest city helping my elder sister pack up her house... seems like they finally have sold the monster thing. If it works, this is what they call a "short sale" ~ means that they have accepted an offer short of what they actually owe, and while I have not heard if the bank will accept it or not, seems like a pretty good thing to do... better to have some money for the stupid thing than having it sit on empty and NOT having any income off of it!
Some buyer out there got a pretty good deal too ~ sucks that the entire down payment AND the equity are gone, but, like I say, this will be better all the way around.
:)
AT any rate, it is very quiet here without my moms constant fussing. Never knew before that there is a ton of different kinds of fussing in this world... I've figured out that that a really good fusser can fuss silently, and the whole freakin' world knows that they are fussing...
yeah, go ahead and re-read that... I'm serious. My mom can fuss without saying a word!
It is snowing, we've about an inch out there of real snow ~ the slush stands at about two inches now, with the real on top. We are barely hovering above the freezing mark, I imagine that this will all be rain in a very short while. The barns/paddocks are a ginormous mess ~ boot sucking smelly crappy mess that I can not do a thing with, due to poor barn design....
I just keep telling myself to do the best I can, and its FREE.
IT's FREE... **sigh**
The newest addition to my horse family, is settling in nicely ~ though t2k seems a bit fussy about the poor thing. Some of that is that I do not want to run over there constantly to see him... I will be VERRA happy when she gets her drivers license so she can run her own backside about.
Hopefully she will get it all done by the weekend. Only has the driving part left to do. :) :) :)
I'm making cookies, sugar ones are in the works ~ and then I have decided that I am going to make "mexican rice" ~ so that we can have it in with our tortillas and taco spices chicken... can't afford much, I am down to pretty much rice and oatmeal... I fart a lot when I eat oatmeal, enough to rival the dogs.
One big happy farting family.
eyp.
Come on viggo, I need a nap already.
And no smoking in bed. Could be hazardous.
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Some buyer out there got a pretty good deal too ~ sucks that the entire down payment AND the equity are gone, but, like I say, this will be better all the way around.
:)
AT any rate, it is very quiet here without my moms constant fussing. Never knew before that there is a ton of different kinds of fussing in this world... I've figured out that that a really good fusser can fuss silently, and the whole freakin' world knows that they are fussing...
yeah, go ahead and re-read that... I'm serious. My mom can fuss without saying a word!
It is snowing, we've about an inch out there of real snow ~ the slush stands at about two inches now, with the real on top. We are barely hovering above the freezing mark, I imagine that this will all be rain in a very short while. The barns/paddocks are a ginormous mess ~ boot sucking smelly crappy mess that I can not do a thing with, due to poor barn design....
I just keep telling myself to do the best I can, and its FREE.
IT's FREE... **sigh**
The newest addition to my horse family, is settling in nicely ~ though t2k seems a bit fussy about the poor thing. Some of that is that I do not want to run over there constantly to see him... I will be VERRA happy when she gets her drivers license so she can run her own backside about.
Hopefully she will get it all done by the weekend. Only has the driving part left to do. :) :) :)
I'm making cookies, sugar ones are in the works ~ and then I have decided that I am going to make "mexican rice" ~ so that we can have it in with our tortillas and taco spices chicken... can't afford much, I am down to pretty much rice and oatmeal... I fart a lot when I eat oatmeal, enough to rival the dogs.
One big happy farting family.
eyp.
Come on viggo, I need a nap already.
And no smoking in bed. Could be hazardous.
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23 February 2009
long nights day
Got up this morning to a skiff of snow ~ the NWS had been threatening us with it all day, though I do not recall at this moment if TWC did or not... I do not use TWC as much as I used to, the ads are a serious pain in the butt!
Yesterday went by in a blur, we went over and shoveled poo at the barn ~ made progress on it, though I am pretty sure it will not look like it when I go over in about 30 minutes to do the morning food run.
Melting snow, and a horse that does not have the sense to poop outdoors makes it a nasty icky mess.
One of my barn landladies came out yesterday, she stopped on her way past the barn ~ she was on her way to get cigarettes. Was the first time in about two weeks that I'd seen anyone out there. It isn't that bad of a thing to not see them, it makes my job of cleaning up the place a whole lot easier. It is not really in that bad of shape, it just has junk lying all over it that should have been thrown out or recycled a LONG time ago. She got to see Diego (newest addition to the barn) and hear t2k say that no one was to go in with him... **sigh**
Sometimes, t2k can say the stupidest things ~ I've told t2 time and time again that the elder barn LL is terrified of horses she does not know, and there is no need to say such... all t2 did was piss the EBLL off...
**sigh**
**shrug** I'm currently ignoring/non reactive/non responsive to much of t2k is saying... she is in PMS week, and no matter what I say, I get slapped with allll the bad things I have ever done, did, or will do concerning her personal space, welfare.... yadda yadda bullshit bullshit...
so. best to just grunt and smile, ya know?
I have GOT to call my liddle bro and figure out this router thing. I am so very tired of not having "my" internet when I want it...
takes me back to the dark ages of when there was only one PC in the house!
eyah... ten whole years ago was the dark ages... odd that!
So... off to feed the beasties, and maybe get back here to read emails before I have to give up the internet for the day.
come on vig, the horse children do not like to be kept waiting...
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Yesterday went by in a blur, we went over and shoveled poo at the barn ~ made progress on it, though I am pretty sure it will not look like it when I go over in about 30 minutes to do the morning food run.
Melting snow, and a horse that does not have the sense to poop outdoors makes it a nasty icky mess.
One of my barn landladies came out yesterday, she stopped on her way past the barn ~ she was on her way to get cigarettes. Was the first time in about two weeks that I'd seen anyone out there. It isn't that bad of a thing to not see them, it makes my job of cleaning up the place a whole lot easier. It is not really in that bad of shape, it just has junk lying all over it that should have been thrown out or recycled a LONG time ago. She got to see Diego (newest addition to the barn) and hear t2k say that no one was to go in with him... **sigh**
Sometimes, t2k can say the stupidest things ~ I've told t2 time and time again that the elder barn LL is terrified of horses she does not know, and there is no need to say such... all t2 did was piss the EBLL off...
**sigh**
**shrug** I'm currently ignoring/non reactive/non responsive to much of t2k is saying... she is in PMS week, and no matter what I say, I get slapped with allll the bad things I have ever done, did, or will do concerning her personal space, welfare.... yadda yadda bullshit bullshit...
so. best to just grunt and smile, ya know?
I have GOT to call my liddle bro and figure out this router thing. I am so very tired of not having "my" internet when I want it...
takes me back to the dark ages of when there was only one PC in the house!
eyah... ten whole years ago was the dark ages... odd that!
So... off to feed the beasties, and maybe get back here to read emails before I have to give up the internet for the day.
come on vig, the horse children do not like to be kept waiting...
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21 February 2009
impatience
That is my middle name today, working up toward my given... we are waiting for the SIL to show up with the truck and trailer to go across the mountains to get t2ks' horse...
shees. No phone calls, no email, no texts... nothing to say when and where they are, we are very much at their mercy.
One of t1ks' biggest peeves is when people don't nail down what time they will be somewhere for them, but they do this ALLLL the time to us...
Guess I am going to have to bring this up to her... one of these days. I don't like to talk to her sometimes, as she does not listen to well ~ When she has a beef with me (many, and often it seems) I just say "yeah, I see your point" and leave it at that. Nothing I say is going to make any difference with anything, so **shrug** I do not even try anymore.
Although, I did open my yapper one day this week... not sure what will come of it yet. t3k was supposed to come down here for homework help today while SIL and t2k went to Seattle to get the horse ~ I doubt that will happen, as I must be punished for saying what I did...
Of course, t1k won't see it that way, but that is exactly what she seems to be doing. I think that it is a good thing that I have come 'round to the point where I do not much care what she thinks, and if I do care, it is for less and less time each little time that she gets in my face.
**sigh** yeah.
**shrug** oh well. It will all work out I am sure.
Been over to feed Budman, fed the other critters, and now I am thinking that I will go for a walk.
t3k will have to come live with me again if she doesn't get her grades up soon, and she will not like that AT all. She won't have as many responsibilities, but living here has its' own hell attached, so that will be incentive enough ~ I hope.
I'm going to apply for food stamps, and medicaid ~ maybe, just maybe! I can get some help.
Come on viggo, lets go for that walk...
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shees. No phone calls, no email, no texts... nothing to say when and where they are, we are very much at their mercy.
One of t1ks' biggest peeves is when people don't nail down what time they will be somewhere for them, but they do this ALLLL the time to us...
Guess I am going to have to bring this up to her... one of these days. I don't like to talk to her sometimes, as she does not listen to well ~ When she has a beef with me (many, and often it seems) I just say "yeah, I see your point" and leave it at that. Nothing I say is going to make any difference with anything, so **shrug** I do not even try anymore.
Although, I did open my yapper one day this week... not sure what will come of it yet. t3k was supposed to come down here for homework help today while SIL and t2k went to Seattle to get the horse ~ I doubt that will happen, as I must be punished for saying what I did...
Of course, t1k won't see it that way, but that is exactly what she seems to be doing. I think that it is a good thing that I have come 'round to the point where I do not much care what she thinks, and if I do care, it is for less and less time each little time that she gets in my face.
**sigh** yeah.
**shrug** oh well. It will all work out I am sure.
Been over to feed Budman, fed the other critters, and now I am thinking that I will go for a walk.
t3k will have to come live with me again if she doesn't get her grades up soon, and she will not like that AT all. She won't have as many responsibilities, but living here has its' own hell attached, so that will be incentive enough ~ I hope.
I'm going to apply for food stamps, and medicaid ~ maybe, just maybe! I can get some help.
Come on viggo, lets go for that walk...
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20 February 2009
inheritance
It has been a LONG week... Here it is Friday, and I've not been online enough to even open my mail ~ odd that, as I am usually quite anal about the emails. I have been keeping track of a lot of people via Facebook lately, so I suppose that it is not to very important that I am on top of mail ~ you know, I can not remember the last time I received a letter by snail mail??
O.o!!!!
Tomorrow there will be delivery of the second kids (t2ks') horse, opening a whole new kind of pain... the kind one gets in ones rear side while trying to get a teen-aged child out of bed to feed horses in the mornings... He isn't a rideable horse, so I have not a clue why she wants to keep him ~ **shrug** most likely I shall inherit him one day too.
wow. Not to long ago, I had an empty nest, and was wondering what to do with my time.
Now? Not so empty, and getting fuller all the time. I inherit a cat back this weekend too...
**sigh**
How do I say no? I can say no to any new animals, but I have a hard time with the old ones, the ones that I had a hand in raising.
Sadly, with the horse, I had no hand in it at all. It was one that t1k and her hubby screwed up, so ... yeah.
Speaking of horses, I have to get my love down here before they kill her.
yeah.
so... off to the day, and the doody at the barn...
Come on viggo, we gots shit to shovel, and it is the non evil kind... you will love it!
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O.o!!!!
Tomorrow there will be delivery of the second kids (t2ks') horse, opening a whole new kind of pain... the kind one gets in ones rear side while trying to get a teen-aged child out of bed to feed horses in the mornings... He isn't a rideable horse, so I have not a clue why she wants to keep him ~ **shrug** most likely I shall inherit him one day too.
wow. Not to long ago, I had an empty nest, and was wondering what to do with my time.
Now? Not so empty, and getting fuller all the time. I inherit a cat back this weekend too...
**sigh**
How do I say no? I can say no to any new animals, but I have a hard time with the old ones, the ones that I had a hand in raising.
Sadly, with the horse, I had no hand in it at all. It was one that t1k and her hubby screwed up, so ... yeah.
Speaking of horses, I have to get my love down here before they kill her.
yeah.
so... off to the day, and the doody at the barn...
Come on viggo, we gots shit to shovel, and it is the non evil kind... you will love it!
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15 February 2009
Sunday??
It was clear when I woke up this morning, since then it has begun to snow. There is enough to cover all the bare spots already. I hope that we have a foot before the day is over... :)
I am having one of those mornings where I seriously regret giving up coffee. Granted, it was not really because I know that it is bad for me, but I still had to make the choice, right?
**shrug**
I do not need it to wake up, I just want it to wake up, and read the paper, and sit and watch the snow land on the skylight...
**sigh**
Tea does the same things physically, but oh how I miss the taste of coffee!
Been to feed the horses, and now am going to go through our local weekend paper ~ it is terribly small, as advertising has taken a serious nosedive... I dunno about anyone else, but I'd rather read the printed paper than read it online ~ I'd still have the NYTimes delivered if I had the money!! For now though, I suffer on the weekends with the local, and read the others I like at the public library.
Oddly enough, I have begun to feel as though we are going backward in time these days ~ back to having to depend on the library/public house type things to get our news because home delivery is a luxury that people feel they can do without. The next thing to go for me will be the telly ~ though I shall miss the music channels greatly.
Guess I will start buying CD's again, eh?
And the radio... I'll get my news on the radio again, instead of in moving pictures ~ When one watches news on the telly, one has to watch the pictures to gather the correct information, as the person that is talking seldom says anything worth while...
While it is a bit scary to think I won't have pictures to back up what is said, it may just come to that for me.
yeah, I'll keep my internet for now, but it too may run the way of the newspaper, and only be accessed through the public library...
Come on Viggo, lets go read the paper and enjoy it we still have it available ~ I'll make a fresh pot of tea to go with.
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I am having one of those mornings where I seriously regret giving up coffee. Granted, it was not really because I know that it is bad for me, but I still had to make the choice, right?
**shrug**
I do not need it to wake up, I just want it to wake up, and read the paper, and sit and watch the snow land on the skylight...
**sigh**
Tea does the same things physically, but oh how I miss the taste of coffee!
Been to feed the horses, and now am going to go through our local weekend paper ~ it is terribly small, as advertising has taken a serious nosedive... I dunno about anyone else, but I'd rather read the printed paper than read it online ~ I'd still have the NYTimes delivered if I had the money!! For now though, I suffer on the weekends with the local, and read the others I like at the public library.
Oddly enough, I have begun to feel as though we are going backward in time these days ~ back to having to depend on the library/public house type things to get our news because home delivery is a luxury that people feel they can do without. The next thing to go for me will be the telly ~ though I shall miss the music channels greatly.
Guess I will start buying CD's again, eh?
And the radio... I'll get my news on the radio again, instead of in moving pictures ~ When one watches news on the telly, one has to watch the pictures to gather the correct information, as the person that is talking seldom says anything worth while...
While it is a bit scary to think I won't have pictures to back up what is said, it may just come to that for me.
yeah, I'll keep my internet for now, but it too may run the way of the newspaper, and only be accessed through the public library...
Come on Viggo, lets go read the paper and enjoy it we still have it available ~ I'll make a fresh pot of tea to go with.
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14 February 2009
13 February 2009
Friday the Thirteenth...
day what... 44? of the year of our lord two thousand and nine.
I think I mighta put the wrong day on yesterday...
**shrug**
I don't think it matters to much, ya know? The days are passing slowly...
My mother is on a tear today, I haven't any idea why. Most likely because she has an appointment downtown today, and does not want to go, and as she has put off a myriad of things until the last minute this week, she has to do them ALL today.
Situation normal... :p
It is snowing, not hard, but it IS. I have missed the snow actually...even though it is a pain in the backside to plow ~ better that than the severe drought that will happen at the end of this year because of lack of snow.
Time to begin planting for this summers vegetable garden ~ I sat down last night and kinda decided what I wanted to grow ~ one thing (I do not remember which) needs to be started sometime in the next week.
I think it is parsley... I love to garden, and grow things, and ... yeah. It will help to keep me busy too.
I tell you what... sharing an internet connection truly is a pain in the rear. :p
Come on viggo, time for some more tea before we start our day...
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I think I mighta put the wrong day on yesterday...
**shrug**
I don't think it matters to much, ya know? The days are passing slowly...
My mother is on a tear today, I haven't any idea why. Most likely because she has an appointment downtown today, and does not want to go, and as she has put off a myriad of things until the last minute this week, she has to do them ALL today.
Situation normal... :p
It is snowing, not hard, but it IS. I have missed the snow actually...even though it is a pain in the backside to plow ~ better that than the severe drought that will happen at the end of this year because of lack of snow.
Time to begin planting for this summers vegetable garden ~ I sat down last night and kinda decided what I wanted to grow ~ one thing (I do not remember which) needs to be started sometime in the next week.
I think it is parsley... I love to garden, and grow things, and ... yeah. It will help to keep me busy too.
I tell you what... sharing an internet connection truly is a pain in the rear. :p
Come on viggo, time for some more tea before we start our day...
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12 February 2009
Today
is the 43 day of 2009, and Abraham Lincoln would be 200 years old if he were still alive today.
I have a few things to do today, foremost of which is keeping myself from doing nothing at all. I am so overwhelmed right now that I just want to curl up in a ball and cry the day away. My mom has some scheme that she wants to "talk" to me about... her little thoughts always make me angry ~ I do not EVEN want to know what she has hatched up this time. Nothing she does is well thought out, no long term planning, nothing.
SO!! yeah.
My creativity takes a huge dive at times like this, any and all projects get lost in the shuffle of daily survival.
**sigh**
so, without whining a lot, I am out of here.
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I have a few things to do today, foremost of which is keeping myself from doing nothing at all. I am so overwhelmed right now that I just want to curl up in a ball and cry the day away. My mom has some scheme that she wants to "talk" to me about... her little thoughts always make me angry ~ I do not EVEN want to know what she has hatched up this time. Nothing she does is well thought out, no long term planning, nothing.
SO!! yeah.
My creativity takes a huge dive at times like this, any and all projects get lost in the shuffle of daily survival.
**sigh**
so, without whining a lot, I am out of here.
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11 February 2009
Been a long couple of days. Today my application of choice was to Costco warehouse... we will see if anything comes of it.
yes, I know that they are not hiring, but I am not lying when I say I am applying EVERYWHERE, ya know?
**sigh**
My car is for sale now... 3500 bucks, and it will all go to pay my mom what I owe her.
Then what?
**shrug** your guess is as good as mine.
Tomorrow, it is down to the job service place to see if that nets any better results... prolly not, but I gots to do sommat.
Sorted out THREE huge boxes today, I'm feeling pretty good about that. At three a day, I will be finished sorting in about 2025 or so...
Come on Viggo... lets go feed the ponies, you are taking me out to dinner tonight.
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yes, I know that they are not hiring, but I am not lying when I say I am applying EVERYWHERE, ya know?
**sigh**
My car is for sale now... 3500 bucks, and it will all go to pay my mom what I owe her.
Then what?
**shrug** your guess is as good as mine.
Tomorrow, it is down to the job service place to see if that nets any better results... prolly not, but I gots to do sommat.
Sorted out THREE huge boxes today, I'm feeling pretty good about that. At three a day, I will be finished sorting in about 2025 or so...
Come on Viggo... lets go feed the ponies, you are taking me out to dinner tonight.
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10 February 2009
25 Signs That You Have Grown Up.
1. Your house plants are alive,
and you can't smoke any of them. 2. Having sex in a twin bed is out of the question. 3. You keep more food than beer in the fridge. 4. 6:00 AM is when you get up, not when you go to bed. 5. You hear your favorite song in an elevator. 6. You watch the Weather Channel. 7. Your friends marry and divorce instead of
"hook up" and "break up." 8. You go from 130 days of vacation time to 14. 9. Jeans and a sweater no longer qualify
as "dressed up." 10. You're the one calling the police because those FUCKING
kids next door won't turn down the stereo. 11. Older relatives feel comfortable telling
sex jokes around you. 12. You don't know what time Taco Bell closes anymore. 13. Your car insurance goes down
and your car payments go up. 14. You feed your dog Science Diet instead of
McDonald's leftovers. 15. Sleeping on the couch makes your back hurt. 16. You take naps. 17. Dinner and a movie is the whole date instead
of the beginning of one. 18. Eating a basket of chicken wings at 3 AM would severely upset
rather than settle your stomach. 19. You go to the drug store for ibuprofen and antacid,
not condoms and pregnancy tests. 20. A $4.00 bottle of wine is no longer "pretty good shit." 21. You actually eat breakfast food at breakfast time. 22. "I just can't drink the way I used to" replaces
"I'm never going to drink that much again." 23. 90% of the time you spend in front
of a computer is for real work. 24. You drink at home to save money before going to a bar. 25. When you find out your friend is pregnant you congratulate them instead of asking "Oh shit what the hell happened?"
09 February 2009
06 February 2009
**sigh**
off to the hinterlands later today, I do not know if I will be able to post from up there or not.
I am doing laundry, and baking a chocolate sheet cake (from Pioneer Woman recipes) to take along with me, and then?
I get to drive the 90 miles one way.
no, I do not want to go, but they offered to pay gas to get me home, so... can't refuse as easily as I might have.
I seriously dislike going there, and that is mostly because I am angry about being left to pay for their stuff (storage and phones) and they are being paid the child support money directly from the spermdonation unit...
In other words, I get screwed on a monthly basis, and they want me to help them?
**sigh** If I had any balls, I would flat out refuse, but I won't... I want some things in return though, like my first horse (she is preggers, I am NOT happy) and the use of the truck that they gave the second daughter.
Neither will happen, but hey, I can ask, right?
I also need to let t1k know that hers and the third kids things will (hopefully) be ready to pick up at the end of February from the storage. If it is not picked up, it will go buh-bye, irregardless of what I think should happen. I just can not keep paying for it ~ my mom paid it this month so I would have a chance to get it out of there...
won't happen, but I am past caring any longer. I just want it all gone, ya know? I am soooo tired of feeling like shit about me because no one cares to help me...
so... I don't think I will bake the cake after all, ya know? **sigh**
so. on that note...
lets get going viggo, I need help unloading the car, and the horses need some attention and...
yeah, I know... I really only want to go back to bed too.
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I am doing laundry, and baking a chocolate sheet cake (from Pioneer Woman recipes) to take along with me, and then?
I get to drive the 90 miles one way.
no, I do not want to go, but they offered to pay gas to get me home, so... can't refuse as easily as I might have.
I seriously dislike going there, and that is mostly because I am angry about being left to pay for their stuff (storage and phones) and they are being paid the child support money directly from the spermdonation unit...
In other words, I get screwed on a monthly basis, and they want me to help them?
**sigh** If I had any balls, I would flat out refuse, but I won't... I want some things in return though, like my first horse (she is preggers, I am NOT happy) and the use of the truck that they gave the second daughter.
Neither will happen, but hey, I can ask, right?
I also need to let t1k know that hers and the third kids things will (hopefully) be ready to pick up at the end of February from the storage. If it is not picked up, it will go buh-bye, irregardless of what I think should happen. I just can not keep paying for it ~ my mom paid it this month so I would have a chance to get it out of there...
won't happen, but I am past caring any longer. I just want it all gone, ya know? I am soooo tired of feeling like shit about me because no one cares to help me...
so... I don't think I will bake the cake after all, ya know? **sigh**
so. on that note...
lets get going viggo, I need help unloading the car, and the horses need some attention and...
yeah, I know... I really only want to go back to bed too.
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05 February 2009
tales from the hinterlands, and a bit of whiny stuff thrown in...
**YAWN**
If I had my way, me and viggo would stay in bed all day today. I am having a terrible time waking up and even though I have been over to feed the horses, and had my own breakfast, I am still draggin' pretty bad.
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My eldest daughter and her hubby live north of me ~ takes me two hours to get there by good road...I talked to her for a bit yesterday ~ she had this story to tell ...
They live at the very end of a two mile dirt road ~ you have to cross two stock guards on the way up.
If I had my way, me and viggo would stay in bed all day today. I am having a terrible time waking up and even though I have been over to feed the horses, and had my own breakfast, I am still draggin' pretty bad.
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My eldest daughter and her hubby live north of me ~ takes me two hours to get there by good road...I talked to her for a bit yesterday ~ she had this story to tell ...
They live at the very end of a two mile dirt road ~ you have to cross two stock guards on the way up.
As you pass the second stock gate/guard, there begins t1 and SILs’ place. The main fences on the property line hold in the stock, but they travel freely about the 80 acres right now ~ snow and high winds have demolished the big pasture fence.
I guess yesterday afternoon t1 ran to the school to pick up t3 ~ and she ran into Ernie, the bus driver that has their house on his route.Seems that Ernie was bringing t3 home one day last week and after rattling across the second stock guard, he went around the corner at creeping speed (he has apparently had run ins with the horses already) and had to stop suddenly because there was a horse standing smack dab in the middle of the road. It wasn’t doing anything in particular, just chillin' out in the late afternoon sunshine and even though there are not any snow banks to speak of, the new melt has filled the marsh on the one side, and the cut bank on the other side is higher than the top of the bus, so there really wasn’t way to go around the horse.
So, there sat Ernie and the horse, nose to grill, about a half mile from the house. The horse, unfazed by the vehicle, just stood there, staring in the front window of the bus at Ernie and t3.
Ernie decides to honk the horn…(Air horn no less…)
**Huh~OOOOwwwwhOOONKKKKKKKKKK**
This horse, who is known to run away as fast his legs will go when he sees a bridle coming, stands there, still as a stone statue, looking at Ernie.
Ernie honks again…
**Huh~oooooWONNNNNNNNNNNNNK**
The horse does not move.
**honk?** goes the horn on the steering column...
**WTF!** goes the horse, flattening his ears at the bus…completely standing his ground.
After a bit more honking, the commotion attracted the attention of the other horses (there are 11 in all) who ~ being curious creatures ~ moseyed on over to find out what all the fuss was about…
Ernie soon found his bus surrounded by horses. At that point, no amount of noise and honking did any good, one horse would move out the way, another was right there to take its’ place.
T3 finally had to get off the bus long enough to shoo them out the way ~ and they all continued on, the smelly yellow horseless carriage leading the rest of the thundering herd up the road.
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04 February 2009
what do I want to do today...
It is fairly early, the four leggeds woke me up right at five this morning. I got up even though I did not want to ~ if only to beat my mom to the kitchen.
This marks the second morning without coffee to wake up with. As a rule, I've only had one cup each morning ~ actually, standard type measures, that is a mug that would be average 12-14 ounces depending on my mood of the morning ~ but that has made it a bit easier to drop the coffee altogether. I had a bit of a headache yesterday, and I am most likely going to have one today, but hey...it is a good thing to be doing for myself, right?
:p actually, I didn't have any choice, I ran out of coffee, and can't replace it. But! That really is okay, as I need to stop the coffee habit entirely.
Time to break out the mate' gourd I guess.
Probably not, as I prefer my favorite mugs in the mornings ~ I actually do drink the Yerba Mate brand ~ it actually tastes the best of the stuff I can get around here.
So ~ why tea instead of coffee?? It is cheaper. Pure and simple. Well, that and does not have all the crazy side affects. :)
Speaking of side affects, I have decided to stop taking the junk that the clinic prescribed. One, it did not do anything for the real problem, and two... it made an underlying problem worse. I have yet to call anyone at the clinic on it ~ they won't even be there for another hour or more.
**shrug** I always do this ~ I go there, hoping that someone will help me figure out what is going on within my person. Sadly, they seem to only pick one thing, and run with that... they try to help me over the phone, because then it isn't costing anyone anything, but that is no way to do stuff...
**sigh** I am quite sure that they do not even bother to read the records of things past, and see that all of this is related somehow, and the whole picture needs to be looked at, not just the one symptom.
Again with the **shrug** ~ my girls know who to sue if I drop dead at least. :)
It has begun to get light, and the garbage needs to go out to the road. As no one else seems to be remembering this, I suppose I ought to get it there.
Stay in bed viggo ~ as soon as I take care of the trash, I'll be back for a cat nap.
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This marks the second morning without coffee to wake up with. As a rule, I've only had one cup each morning ~ actually, standard type measures, that is a mug that would be average 12-14 ounces depending on my mood of the morning ~ but that has made it a bit easier to drop the coffee altogether. I had a bit of a headache yesterday, and I am most likely going to have one today, but hey...it is a good thing to be doing for myself, right?
:p actually, I didn't have any choice, I ran out of coffee, and can't replace it. But! That really is okay, as I need to stop the coffee habit entirely.
Time to break out the mate' gourd I guess.
Probably not, as I prefer my favorite mugs in the mornings ~ I actually do drink the Yerba Mate brand ~ it actually tastes the best of the stuff I can get around here.
So ~ why tea instead of coffee?? It is cheaper. Pure and simple. Well, that and does not have all the crazy side affects. :)
Speaking of side affects, I have decided to stop taking the junk that the clinic prescribed. One, it did not do anything for the real problem, and two... it made an underlying problem worse. I have yet to call anyone at the clinic on it ~ they won't even be there for another hour or more.
**shrug** I always do this ~ I go there, hoping that someone will help me figure out what is going on within my person. Sadly, they seem to only pick one thing, and run with that... they try to help me over the phone, because then it isn't costing anyone anything, but that is no way to do stuff...
**sigh** I am quite sure that they do not even bother to read the records of things past, and see that all of this is related somehow, and the whole picture needs to be looked at, not just the one symptom.
Again with the **shrug** ~ my girls know who to sue if I drop dead at least. :)
It has begun to get light, and the garbage needs to go out to the road. As no one else seems to be remembering this, I suppose I ought to get it there.
Stay in bed viggo ~ as soon as I take care of the trash, I'll be back for a cat nap.
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03 February 2009
hump day minus one
Guess I was just wishing that the week was mostly over.
Had a good yell at my mom, I don't know that it did any good. She always seems to find her way to the kitchen whenever I am trying to make myself anything to eat... and this morning, it pissed me off ~ when I asked her to wait with what she was doing she said,
"it's the last pot, I just want to wash it up..."
I blew.
To make a long explanation short, what I actually heard?
"you are not important enough for me to listen too, nor take heed of, nor even worry that you might NEED something of and/or from me... bite my ass, I am first!"
yep. that is it right there. Susy has no needs, susy can wait, susy has to do what she needs to do ONLY after everyone else is done...
Been that way my whole life. The only time I came first is if I were to sick to ignore any longer.
Now? I'm sick, and I still get ignored, but somehow, that doesn't really bother me, for she doesn't remember what I have said to her anyways, and I get so damned frustrated by having to RE-explain everything all the time...
her excuse? She is just not paying attention... um... DUH. I KNOW that.
**sigh**
so... I am trying to stay out of her way, and go about what I need to do.
I've only 23 days left on my agreement with my dad ~ I've a lot to get finished up before then.
Come on viggo, we've stuff to do... NAH!!! lets go snuggle on the bed instead. May not accomplish anything, but it sure would make me feel better.
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Had a good yell at my mom, I don't know that it did any good. She always seems to find her way to the kitchen whenever I am trying to make myself anything to eat... and this morning, it pissed me off ~ when I asked her to wait with what she was doing she said,
"it's the last pot, I just want to wash it up..."
I blew.
To make a long explanation short, what I actually heard?
"you are not important enough for me to listen too, nor take heed of, nor even worry that you might NEED something of and/or from me... bite my ass, I am first!"
yep. that is it right there. Susy has no needs, susy can wait, susy has to do what she needs to do ONLY after everyone else is done...
Been that way my whole life. The only time I came first is if I were to sick to ignore any longer.
Now? I'm sick, and I still get ignored, but somehow, that doesn't really bother me, for she doesn't remember what I have said to her anyways, and I get so damned frustrated by having to RE-explain everything all the time...
her excuse? She is just not paying attention... um... DUH. I KNOW that.
**sigh**
so... I am trying to stay out of her way, and go about what I need to do.
I've only 23 days left on my agreement with my dad ~ I've a lot to get finished up before then.
Come on viggo, we've stuff to do... NAH!!! lets go snuggle on the bed instead. May not accomplish anything, but it sure would make me feel better.
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02 February 2009
day 33 of 365
seems like a long year ahead of me... I was in a good mood ~ but the constant stress and craziness that swirls around me is really dragging me down today.
Wish I knew how to stop it.
**shrug** guess I'll get over it, eh?
eyah. over it.
I just want to curl up in a little ball and cry. I have no time to do that, I must take the kid to the city, and get her rolling on a life. By the time I get home, I will be way to tired to do anything for myself ~ which is a fairly typical situation actually, I've been doing this for 26 years.
I was put on the earth to care for other people only, right? To be used and give and give and never get anything in return...
yeah.
so.
viggo, we'd better get married soon, or there won't be a whole lot left of me...
:p
Wish I knew how to stop it.
**shrug** guess I'll get over it, eh?
eyah. over it.
I just want to curl up in a little ball and cry. I have no time to do that, I must take the kid to the city, and get her rolling on a life. By the time I get home, I will be way to tired to do anything for myself ~ which is a fairly typical situation actually, I've been doing this for 26 years.
I was put on the earth to care for other people only, right? To be used and give and give and never get anything in return...
yeah.
so.
viggo, we'd better get married soon, or there won't be a whole lot left of me...
:p
01 February 2009
New Tricks...
oddly enough, I pretty much slept all night. I've been having troubles with my sinuses, and so I took a benedryl last night with my sleepytime tea. (the tea is part of my bedtime ritual) I notice that the 2nd kid is sleeping peacefully also ~ bedtime ritual is good I think.
I've internet radio going this morning ~ I do not usually like internet radio stations, but that really is mostly because my speakers stink ~ That said, a site called Pandoras Box radio is working for me. You just put in an artist, and it builds a station around that kind/genre of music for you. Through the Pandora site, I have heard many artists that are new to me, and every bit as good as the ones I used to listen to all the time.
I prefer instrumental things on Sunday mornings ~ :) Today it is the George Winston station.
I've had my morning coffee, for once it was a quiet cup, all by myself. The critters seemed to enjoy it too ~ Little Cat is sitting here with me right now, purring in my right ear. Old Cat, she is in her bed next to the desk here, she is way to big to sit on my lap while I type. She just purrs away from there.
Old Cat is going to be 8 years old this year ~ means Old Dog is going to be 9. Weird to think we have pretty much spent a decade together now.
Wow. Old Dog is one fifth my age in human years, but in doggie years, she must be older than me now... I am noticing that we both cripple about pretty badly in the mornings now, it takes us both a bit of moving to work the kinks out. The poor old girl, she puts up with so much. Little Kitty attacks her tail every time it moves, Old Dog has learned to show her "yeah yeah mom, lets go" enthusiasm by only wiggling the very end of her tail ~ Little Kitty is less apt to see that. As soon as O.D. stands up though, L.K is right there to attack.
Yesterday morning when I was getting ready to go feed the horses, O.D. was up and wagging her rear... and L.K. was running about like a mad fool, trying to catch the dogs tail. After bouncing about the room, the little one went a bit too spaztik and ran across my feet while I was trying to tie my shoes. It irritated me a bit, so I hollered "SIT DOWN!"....
And everyone sat... all three cats, and both dogs... (yes, I was surprised too)
With timing that will never be repeated, Old Dog sat, landing just right on the Little Cat ~ catching the cat exactly so that she could not move. Oddly enough, the cat did not struggle, she just sat there and looked at me like everyone else was...
The dog, noticing the lump under her rear, looked back ~ fortunately without getting up, and looked totally surprised that it was the cat.
I could just see the light bulb go off in the dogs head. The cat didn't move when it was trapped...
Later in the morning, L.K was bothering the dog ~ normally the dog would just try to ignore it.
Not this time. Whenever it was too much, Old Dog would simply trap the kitty under a paw, and hold her there for a moment.
Some form of communication was taking place, because L.K would be still, and when O.D released her, she would go off and play with someone or something else.
Never believe that you can't teach an old dog new tricks.
come on viggo, as usual, it is time to go feed the horses...
are you sure we can't build a barn closer to the house for me??
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I've internet radio going this morning ~ I do not usually like internet radio stations, but that really is mostly because my speakers stink ~ That said, a site called Pandoras Box radio is working for me. You just put in an artist, and it builds a station around that kind/genre of music for you. Through the Pandora site, I have heard many artists that are new to me, and every bit as good as the ones I used to listen to all the time.
I prefer instrumental things on Sunday mornings ~ :) Today it is the George Winston station.
I've had my morning coffee, for once it was a quiet cup, all by myself. The critters seemed to enjoy it too ~ Little Cat is sitting here with me right now, purring in my right ear. Old Cat, she is in her bed next to the desk here, she is way to big to sit on my lap while I type. She just purrs away from there.
Old Cat is going to be 8 years old this year ~ means Old Dog is going to be 9. Weird to think we have pretty much spent a decade together now.
Wow. Old Dog is one fifth my age in human years, but in doggie years, she must be older than me now... I am noticing that we both cripple about pretty badly in the mornings now, it takes us both a bit of moving to work the kinks out. The poor old girl, she puts up with so much. Little Kitty attacks her tail every time it moves, Old Dog has learned to show her "yeah yeah mom, lets go" enthusiasm by only wiggling the very end of her tail ~ Little Kitty is less apt to see that. As soon as O.D. stands up though, L.K is right there to attack.
Yesterday morning when I was getting ready to go feed the horses, O.D. was up and wagging her rear... and L.K. was running about like a mad fool, trying to catch the dogs tail. After bouncing about the room, the little one went a bit too spaztik and ran across my feet while I was trying to tie my shoes. It irritated me a bit, so I hollered "SIT DOWN!"....
And everyone sat... all three cats, and both dogs... (yes, I was surprised too)
With timing that will never be repeated, Old Dog sat, landing just right on the Little Cat ~ catching the cat exactly so that she could not move. Oddly enough, the cat did not struggle, she just sat there and looked at me like everyone else was...
The dog, noticing the lump under her rear, looked back ~ fortunately without getting up, and looked totally surprised that it was the cat.
I could just see the light bulb go off in the dogs head. The cat didn't move when it was trapped...
Later in the morning, L.K was bothering the dog ~ normally the dog would just try to ignore it.
Not this time. Whenever it was too much, Old Dog would simply trap the kitty under a paw, and hold her there for a moment.
Some form of communication was taking place, because L.K would be still, and when O.D released her, she would go off and play with someone or something else.
Never believe that you can't teach an old dog new tricks.
come on viggo, as usual, it is time to go feed the horses...
are you sure we can't build a barn closer to the house for me??
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